Greenlight What Will Happen When I Close My Eyes

I need someone's help
I just need one step
Left to go to hell
Or go to heaven
It doesn't matter
I have feeling bad
I have feeling sad
I have feeling mad
Also something else
But don't know what else
I need someone's face
To saving my face
I'm like basket case
I have dependence
I hope someone cares
And some wants to helps

When I wanna make a suicide
I imagine that I am fine
What will happen when I close my eyes
I don't wanna see fucking dark
When i'm alone I look at the sky
And I dream about great life
Only love without hates, envy, lies
But I don't see it and I want to die

And my body starts
To burn in my veins
When I cry inside
And fire in my eyes
That inside my cuts
Makes me warm and hard
Makes me laugh and whine
Makes me fall and die
I'm in depression
And in obsession
Of my decision
And contradiction
And have I grown up
Or have I still young
Am I just a smart
Am I just a dumb

When I was young I think I am smart
But it's a lie I cry all night
I think I was born at the wrong time
Just give me chance to change my life
You never know what you gonna get
You never know who you will meet
What will you do if you have a worse life
Will you save your life to keep fight

When I wanna make a suicide
I imagine that I am fine
What will happen when I close my eyes
I don't wanna see fucking dark
When i'm alone I look at the sky
And I dream about great life
Only love without hates, envy, lies
But I don't see it and I want to die
When I was young I think I am smart
But it's a lie I cry all night
I think I was born at the wrong time
Just give me chance to change my life
You never know what you gonna get
You never know who you will meet
What will you do if you have a worse life
Will you save your life to keep fight