Alina De LaRay, sweetiele, Six Dior If This Was Easy

I still know the way your name looks
Lighting up my phone at night
Funny how some things disappear
And some things stay behind

I changed the sheets in my bedroom
Took your picture off the wall
Put your old gray sweater in a box
Down the back of the hall

My friends say i'm doing better
Maybe they're a little right
I don't sit awake and wonder
Where you are on friday nights

But then a song comes through the speakers
At a red light on my way home
And for a second i forget
I'm supposed to let you go

If this was easy
I would've done it by now
I would've stopped looking for you
In every crowded town

If this was easy
You'd just be somebody i knew
But every time i think i'm over it
Something brings me back to you

If this was easy
I wouldn't still feel this way

Last tuesday at the grocery store
I saw your favorite coffee brand
I almost reached and grabbed two cups
Before i caught my hand

It's strange what stays after goodbye
The little things you never see
A song, a street, a morning drive
Still finding their way to me

I don't miss every argument
I don't miss every night we lost
I just miss the way tomorrow looked
Before we knew the cost

If this was easy
I would've done it by now
I would've stopped looking for you
In every crowded town

If this was easy
You'd just be somebody i knew
But every time i think i'm over it
Something brings me back to you

If this was easy
I wouldn't still feel this way

Nobody tells you how it happens
One day, then another one
You keep carrying less of someone
Until most of them are gone

I don't wanna go back there
I don't wanna lose myself
I just thought by now your memory
Would sit a little farther on the shelf

If this was easy
I would've done it by now
I would've closed the door behind me
Without turning around

If this was easy
You'd just be somebody i knew
But some hearts take a little longer
To stop running back to you

If this was easy
I wouldn't still feel this way

I still know the way your name looks
Lighting up my phone at night

If this was easy
I'd forget you tonight