Текст песни
Locked in a cage that I made out of panic and shame
Scared of a touch, scared nobody remembers my name
Lonely is hell, but together’s a circle of flame
Warming my palms on the ash where the broken hands lay
I keep running from crowds while I’m freezing inside
Enemy-me with a ram going straight for my mind
Higher I climb, then the harder I fall from the sky
Built me a heaven, but hell was the exit I signed
Mama, forgive me, my calls got cold and rare
I know you believe, I know you still care
But your foolish son got lost in the dark he wears
In textures of night, in the weight of his prayers
Can you hear me? I nearly let everything burn
Burned all the s I needed to learn
Out of my pride, out of fear, out of hurt
I almost killed every road of return
Tell me, can you feel this heart under my skin
Can you hear the silent blood rushing within
I scream, “Wait, don’t go, let the world wake again”
Maybe luck finds our road somewhere in the end
But the demons inside me keep laughing louder
I’m falling down while my soul fights harder
If you’re by my side, even night turns to dawn
And the scream from my chest in your heart carries on
I tried drowning my demons in oceans of sin
But those fuckers swim better than sailors can swim
They came back to the surface with teeth in a grin
Old mistakes tied a noose and they pulled me back in
They know my address and they sleep in my bed
They dance in the noise when I scream in my head
They spin my carousel till I’m dizzy and dead
Till the floor turns to fire and the ceiling turns red
But stop — no more running, I’m done with the chase
I’m tired of denying the shadow I face
I look in their eyes, no more hiding in shame
A new day is coming, I’m calling its name
Yeah, I’m broken, yeah, scars on my heart burn bright
But my wrongs are the poison I learned to survive
I accept all the dirt and the dark in my life
Not perfect, not holy — but finally alive
I’m no saint, so don’t save me, don’t preach, don’t cure
Just stay close beside me, try to see what I’m worth
I don’t ask you to carry the pain I endure
Just stay when I forget what I’m living for
Tell me, can you feel this heart under my skin
Can you hear the silent blood rushing within
I scream, “Wait, don’t go, let the world wake again”
Maybe luck finds our road somewhere in the end
But the demons inside me keep laughing louder
I’m falling down while my soul fights harder
If you’re by my side, even night turns to dawn
And the scream from my chest in your heart carries on
Not perfect
Not holy
But finally alive
Just stay
When I forget
What I’m living for
