Текст песни
Yeah... I did it again
I said I'd change. I didn't
I'm sorry
I promise you the world and then I break
I swear I'll change and then I make
The same mistake, the same old fight
I hold you close then run away at midnight
My head is two places at once
I love you but I'm still a mess, still a dunce
Don't give up on me, I know I'm slow
But I'm trying — I just don't know how to let it go
I woke up shaking at 3 AM
Couldn't breathe, felt like the end
You were sleeping right next to me
But I felt alone — that's the enemy
I almost screamed. I almost left
Almost broke the only thing I have left
Then I saw your hand on my chest
And for one second — I could rest
What if I never get better?
What if I ruin us forever?
I see your face when I lie to myself
I put your love back on the shelf
Then take it down, then break it again
I'm so tired of being my own problem, my own pain
Last week I yelled. For no reason
You cried. It was off-season
For fighting. We had a good day
And I burned it down anyway
You still stayed. You still looked at me
Like maybe I'm not just misery
But I see it now — the fear in your eyes
Every time my voice gets too sharp, too wise
Too lost in my own damage, my own lies
I promise you the world and then I break
I swear I'll change and then I make
The same mistake, the same old fight
I hold you close then run away at midnight
My head is two places at once
I love you but I'm still a mess, still a dunce
Don't give up on me, I know I'm slow
But I'm trying — I just don't know how to let it go
But then I see you folding laundry
Humming something off-key and ordinary
And I think — I want this forever
Not the drama. Not the stormy weather
Just you. In a kitchen. In a small flat
Me learning how to take a deep breath after combat
I'm not fixed. I'm not whole
But I'm holding onto your soul
Like a lifeline, like a prayer
Even when I'm gasping for air
And one day — if you still want me near
If you still choose me after all the tears
I'll get down on one knee. Not to beg
But to promise you the rest of my legs
Will walk only toward you
Every panic, every shiver, every storm
I'll come home to you. That's the norm
I'll put a ring on your finger
Not to trap you. Not to linger
In guilt. But to say: "You're my family now
I'm still broken, but I'll figure out how
To love you without breaking you too."
So no — I'm not fixed
But I'm here. I'm sick
But I'm yours
Please don't close the doors
