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I cleaned out my closet today
Found your sweater I forgot to throw away
It still smells like you, three years later
Funny how clothes remember better than I do
I should hate you, but I don't
I should move on, but I won't
Not because I'm weak, not because I'm cruel
Just because some things become part of your fuel
And I drive past your street when I'm lost
Not because I wanna pay the cost
But because home is where you are
Even when we're worlds apart
It's heavy
Carrying someone who already left
It's heavy
Borrowing breath from a ghost in my chest
I'm not asking you to come back
I'm not asking you to call
I'm just wondering if it's always gonna feel this tall
This mountain of us
This dust
This heavy
My friends say "get over it, move on"
Like grief has a schedule, like love has a bomb
You can detonate and walk away clean
But they don't know what I've seen
I've seen you cry in the kitchen at 3 AM
I've seen you break and build again
You're not just someone I used to know
You're the blueprint of how I learned to grow
And I don't want you back, I swear
I just want to stop comparing everyone everywhere
To the way you laughed, to the way you lied
To the way you looked at me before you died inside
It's heavy
Carrying someone who already left
It's heavy
Borrowing breath from a ghost in my chest
I'm not asking you to come back
I'm not asking you to call
I'm just wondering if it's always gonna feel this tall
This mountain of us
This dust
This heavy
Maybe one day I'll forget your middle name
Maybe one day I won't feel the shame
Of loving someone who couldn't stay
Without making it mean I'm not okay
But today is not that day
Today I let the weight just stay
Yeah, it's heavy
But maybe heavy means it was real
Maybe heavy means I can feel
Something deeper than surface, something louder than goodbye
Maybe heavy means I'm still alive
And I'm learning to carry
What I can't bury
This love
This heavy
I cleaned out my closet today
Your sweater's in a box, but that's okay
Some things you don't throw away
You just learn to hold them differently
