Текст песни
Dear diary
This is it
I have ended
My miserable life
I couldn't take this shit any more
Being trapped
In a wheelchair
For the rest of my damn life
Is just not worth it
The surgeons told me
That everything would be ok
They gave me hope
Only to crush it under the soles of their feet
And watch me
Destroy myself
They lied to me!
They didn't know what it felt like!
I thought I could handle my emotions
Control them
Contain them
Prove them all wrong
But i was just too weak
I let it slip
Through my fingers
Out of my grip
It poisoned me
It clouded my mind
They didn't know anything
They only feel the cold touch of their knives
They gave me antidepressants
It helped me think clearly
To see things through
I took a couple of extra pills this afternoon
They showed me what
I had to do in this
Short moment of clarity
They showed me
That there was noone
And nothing worth living for!
They showed me how fake
Sophie and my doctor were
How they were laughing
At me behind their masks
When i wasn't looking
Laughing at me
My legs
Thinking that they are so good
That they are better than me
Pretending that they care about me
It's all bullshit!
The pills showed me the truth today
They always did
They opened my eyes
They gave me wisdom
And I acted upon it
So
I had to kill Sophie
And my doctor
My mentor
My counsellor
I had to take them down with me
They're not laughing any more
I wish I could've taken everybody with me
But unfortunately
My situation
Makes that impossible
To whoever is reading this
I hope my dead body will haunt you forever
Have fun scraping my brains off the wall
Fuck you!
