Текст песни
I've been lookin' for it, seekin' for prescription
I adore it, I despise it, I don't trust my intuition
Always hard to find, hard to clarify, what the fuck I want
And it's been like that for a long time, I've been down
Love was found, it was lost, I've been snortin' all these lines
Seeing ghosts, torturing myself with my thoughts
(What they talkin' 'bout?)
Promise I could tell a thing or two about it
My decisions and my actions, I'm not proud of
And 'bout dreaming of an ending in my bathroom
Wrists slit, blood is dripping by my shower
Felt like solving problems wasn't in my power
'twas when misery just turned into a sorrow
Spent my last dollar, just to get number
I had only one wish - to rest in peace
To fall into abyss and just cease to exist
Been a torture all along, but what a plot twist
Sick and tired of my emotions, 'cause I know the answer is
I've been lookin' for it, seekin' for prescription
Please somebody call a doctor, I'm loosin' my vision
That's no fiction, I adore it, I despise it, I don't trust my intuition
And I am not lookin' forward for any other opinion
Always hard to find, hard to clarify, what the fuck I want
And it's been like that for a long time, I've been down
Love was found, it was lost, I've been snortin' all these lines
Seeing ghosts, torturing myself with my thoughts
Like who would have thought? I am better off
Getting high again, simply to forget it all
Don't know what is worse
Put a bullet in my brain or to cut my throat, I know life is short
But is that even a life, when you are being stalked?
When memories just haunt, and keep reminding of
What piece of shit I am, and how all I do is wrong
Been seekin' for a peace of mind, all this time along
All that made me realize I'm never coming strong
If there is a hidden meaning, begging you to talk
It's overcomplicated, and I'm not the one to pose
Feels all I do is false, I might just overdose
I've been lookin' for it, seekin' for prescription
Please somebody call a doctor, I'm loosin' my vision
That's no fiction, I adore it, I despise it, I don't trust my intuition
And I am not lookin' forward for any other opinion
I've been lookin' for it, seekin' for prescription
Please somebody call a doctor, I'm loosin' my vision
That's no fiction, I adore it, I despise it, I don't trust my intuition
And I am not lookin' forward for any other opinion
